Come to Jesus Moment

I totally used getting over by my mom to shovel her drive way this morning to give me oooommmfff (technical term for motivation) to begin a new work out program.

Have you ever heard the phrase “Nothing changes if nothing changes”? It’s one of my favorites.

Full honesty, I have been in a waiting room of sorts in my mind for a little bit. I had not been allowing myself to soften into the wintering months as I often share is such a beautiful way of Being during this time. Rather, I had been drifting……drifting to a space where there was more darkness rather than light. I was DOING rather than Being.

I’m calling myself out.

I was trying so hard (key word: hard) to hear where I was being led next that I was missing Being, Right Here in the Now.

Because I wasn’t seeing the results the way that I wanted, I looked in other areas of my life to control.

Yes, I would catch myself often saying to myself “What are you doing?” “This isn’t the way” “You’re exhausted, stop trying to make it all happen” “Let Go and Let God”.

I was hardening my heart. I found myself more in frustration rather than joy, satisfaction.

Truth be told, I was looking for reasons to be frustrated.

The come to Jesus moment happened when my neck locked up about a week ago. I looked into my handy book of “The Secret Language of Your Body” to see what was possibly being held in there and this is what resonated: Spending too much time thinking and trying to work things out, and not enough time being aware of your feelings by tuning into your intuition.

I was TRYING SO HARD to MAKE THINGS HAPPEN and the truth is I know that this is not the way.

I still get caught up from time to time.

I was also brought to the awareness of my Solar Plexus being blocked. What is there? One’s courage, strength, power.

God will lead you to the “come to Jesus moment’s” when you aren’t seeing it for yourself. He will literally stop you in your tracks or bring on an ailment. I also got a nice big head cold the following week probably because again, I was too much in my mind and not in my body, in the space of allowing.

How do I Be in this time?

I am taking good care of my body. As I am moving into pre-menopause, I am being very curious of what I am putting in my body, how I can best support myself. So I started on these pills called Happy Camper to help my sassy pre-menopause tude that is coming out. Don’t you love the name? I am also starting a new Strength Training Peloton Program. I purchased a book on how to eat for your cycle and as you move into menopause to support your own body best. AND I am reading a book for leisure that is spiritual and is re-directing my mind back in alignment with God, oneness, non-attachment and reminding me of my power because the truth is, IT NEVER LEAVES and neither does God. I am also scheduling a Reiki Session for myself and tapping into my own Reiki tool bag to support myself well.

I give myself grace, compassion. I’m just a spirit attempting to be my best in human form.

So I set down the hard yet again and rest in the knowing that everything is right in this moment and this one and the next. Settle your ass down Theresa;)

Begin again in this moment, is my motto if you have been following me for some time.

Will you join me?