Ebbs & Flows Baby
Well here I am. I am still alive and breathing. I am still showing up.
COVID-19 has thoroughly taken my life/business and shaken it up like one of those snow globes. I watch the snowflakes slowly falling but we are all in the same boat, as to how and where the flakes fall. And the snowflakes represent so many different things…..the virus itself (I capitalized the V in virus first but didn’t want to give it that much energy so I chose the small “v”). Other things the flakes represent for me personally are my health, my sanity, my emotions, my business, the debt I will acrew, the breakdowns, the breakthroughs, more awareness of how I desire my life to be lived personally and professionally, more yoga…ALL THE YOGA (thank God for yoga), more nature time, fostering deeper connections with my clients, falling apart, picking myself back up, each moment of every day honoring where I am at with more Grace and Unconditional Love that I never knew I had for myself.
It’s interesting being a person (me) who holds a lot of space and love for others and in these time I find myself not sure how to hold it all and then I remember I don’t have to.
Tonight before my online yoga class started I had a nice chat with one of my yoga students about what I was pondering to myself, “Self, how come you just can’t seem to get it together with your emotions and new normal….with all the teaches you have learned….I mean, come on.” And as I am talking this over with my yoga student, I answered my own question: I have never been in an experience like this so how would I know how to handle it?”
So I took a deep breath.
I sat in the awareness of what I just said. But what I do have are many tools. Many tools around trauma, self care, love, gratitude and those are the things I can invite in more than ever to not only help me move through these times of so much unknown but also help others.
I am literally every day practicing what I preach but more that I ever have.
Every day is a new wave of Ebbs & Flows but I have a new normal starting to take place. Higher intense workouts to strengthen my bones/muscles and shake off the stress and worry. I am also working on meditating 2x/per day; it may be only for 5 minutes each time but I am committing to it. I am working on getting my rear outside as much as I can; nature heals and so does the sun (when it comes out for us WI peeps). I am drinking much more water than normal, I might need to invest in those orange arm floaties before I float away. Ha! I am being much more conscious of what is entering my body both physical and mental. I am working on more awareness around my food and drink (less alcohol for sure). I am working on training my brain to be more in a space of curiosity, compassion, empathy and possibility.
Did you know your brain is plastic and can create new neuropathways to feel better, to be less triggered, to help decrease the trauma response?
I mean, WHATTTT??? Yep, welcome to Neurosculpting and I am a Neurosculpting Facilitator.
This is how I am continuing to work through my patterns and old stories along with new and old traumas and we all struggle with all of these things. If you are ready for a new way, please let’s start getting you on that healing journey to create the life that feels the best to you. You do not have to keep living in the past.
So I leave you with this: How do you choose to ride the Ebbs & Flows of this wave? Will you give yourself permission to surrender to the wave and allow whatever needs to unravel and awaken and let it be so?
And also, I beg that you give yourself so much unconditional love and grace as well as others during this time. We are navigating this uncertainty to the best of all of our abilities. It’s almost like we are all trying to lead each other blindfolded. Interesting thought, eh?
Be well and take the best care of yourself right now.
Sending all my love to you all,
Theresa Marie Falvey