The Ceiling.

I am available for God to come in.

I am still processing my time in Georgia 2 weeks ago.

I am still processing how I created God in the image of my own Dad.

The more I am reading since being away at the Spiritual Leadership Coaching Workshop about how so many others have experienced in creating this same reality, this same distance from yourself and God, I am amazed.

It’s so interesting how we can continue to Shame, Blame, Punish ourselves when we are no longer those 5…10….15 year old selves, we just manifest it in another way.

Let me share another BIG awareness when it comes to success for myself and that gap or “ceiling” I had created with God.

I need to pause for a moment before I go into this awareness…..I know to my core that none of what I am about to share is True. This is my mind that created this.

Because with my Dad I had so many expectations set upon me when I was younger and the bar never felt like it could be reached and that no matter what I did would be enough or done the “right” way, I created this part in my brain where things or success was just always out of my reach. It could be for other people and not for me.

And because as an adult I created God in somewhat the likeness of my Dad, God became that Father figure with the same expectations. Dangling my dreams and goals like a carrot and I would never fully be able to claim it for myself. I would never Be Good Enough for them……….For Him.

This belief created a Gap…..a Ceiling for me that I could never fully have what I desire.

Here is the actual Desire underneath all of that: I was loved unconditionally, fully and completely.

That God’s love wasn’t earned and it was enough. I was….I AM Enough.

The gentleman who was coaching me on this in Georgia, showed me a mirror image of what I had created God to be from the Father I had grown up with. The reality was this was two different kinds of love but I had made them the same.

In that moment, I was snapped into reality, in the moment where truth lies.

Here is the undying truth: That IT IS FOR ME…..ALL OF IT.

I GET to have a different relationship with my FATHER in heaven.

Here’s the BONUS: that by working on my relationship with God and to allow myself to be fully available and open to all his love and desires for me and the success, this supports my healing journey with my dear Dad who was here doing his best to love me in his way here on earth.

What a Gift it all is. This is why I believe so deeply that healing is possible for all of us because it is!

Every day I wake up from my time in Georgia and working so deeply with God, I say “It’s all for me, thank you God. I am open and available to be led and receive your love and desires for me.”

This is SUCCESS to me.

Ceiling Shattered.

I See You,

I Love You,

I Am With You,

Theresa